It stems from something that has always bothered me, and when I Google it, as usual, it is so very hard to find out an article where someone does not mention sin. In fact, it is impossible to bring up anything in regards to the self without bringing up our sin nature. Most Christians know this, but feel the need to talk about it day and night as if people haven’t heard it ten million times already. Some people might very well need it, and that is how they get convicted, I understand that part, but why is the majority of things written always a punch in the face? Why do Christians not realize that if they stay on the path of talking about ONLY sin, than you will end up with believers leaving the faith. Why? Because people want to know more, they want to know God personally, not just how many things they do wrong in their lives, and what a rotten person they are.
I say this because I got away from God twice, and what pushed me away both time was the never ending talk that makes you feel like garbage. Sin is a big problem in our world, it sadly defines us and that is the most miserable concept that we have the unfortune to not only inherit, but we have to live out our lives with it. That is not fun, and it is bad enough it was not gotten rid of, we have accept grace, and for some of us, that is very hard. I think the message of what Jesus did on the cross gets completely buried because our guilt over our lives trumps it.
We cancel out what Jesus did, which was HUGE by hating ourselves for our sin. That erases grace and gives evil the upper hand. I know it has for me. Anytime there is a hole in the Christian person’s armour, it usually has to do with personal feelings, and then Satan crawls inside to destroy you because if nobody is talking about it with you, or you can’t get information on it, you make up stuff instead, and it always ends up being lies.
Now, that being said, may I finally talk about YOU? I found this one post from 2018 where this person wrote this:
Yes, I know that God hates sin and calls me to repent. I also know that he has cleansed me from sin. I know that he does not tolerate sin. I’m not talking about sin. I’m talking about the fact that I really like colored socks and don’t know what to say to strangers I’ve just met. I’m talking about the kind of clothes that I wear and the kind of music I like. I wear waistcoats and hats and say weird things.-Does God Like Me?
This person just summed it up and it is rare to find someone talk so refreshingly. They spent the entire article having to repeat themselves a million times on sin and separating that from the person because we don’t do that in reality. Maybe it is because we are beat to death with a shovel by leaders, Pastors who want us to be guided correctly, but fail to address problems that arise in the Christian’s life.
When I sent time on the Ex-Christian side in 2019, I picked up a lot. Nobody bothered to discuss their feelings, their questions, they just went unanswered, so they left. Some will never come back because they think that if a real God existed, he wouldn’t do this to people, but they neglect Satan and the demons, and the wretched work they do at trying to destroy every aspect of our lives because we follow God.
I would rather pay attention to the verse at the moment:
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.-Romans 8:37(NKJV)
But the article I mentioned got me thinking…
Does God like me for who I am? My taste for relaxing but deep Indie songs? My intense deep mind that finds meaning in everything? The way I use wit without trying in people I am comfortable around, and look for reasons to laugh even though I am a very serious person? Does he like my favorite colors or clothes? Does He like that I have to express myself through art or writing because I can’t be anything else? That I have a weird interest in Korean vlogs even though I am American? These are important questions. Only God can answer them.
If the answer is no, what on earth are we doing here in different bodies, experiences, and personalities?
I saw this tv show years ago, and a line stuck out in it, that leaves a lump in my throat to this day. This man liked this woman even though she didn’t like him, and someone else tried to dress like her for a night, so he told her: “She can wear the clothes, but she’ll never be you.” Can’t we say that about people we have lost? i lost my Father, and can say nobody on earth was like him. I can think of people that have died, and know they were one in a million.
So to me, just because we are sinners, does not mean we have to forget and gloss over the good things about us. If we do not pay attention to these things, we will become resentful, hurt, and unfaithful. We have to pay attention to who we are. It makes no sense for us to be happy about God and doing things for Him, if we don’t feel god about ourselves to some extent.
I hate that I have to put disclaimers on things, or mention it a million times in a post like that person did in that article, because people will jump on you out of their own fears of God, and demand you stay on the straight and narrow, but none of it has anything to do with the fact we are each born with our own names, and physical characteristics nobody else shares. Nobody can be us. God must need us to be ourselves, the good and the bad, no matter what.
The famous verse we all cling to is really the only answer we have:
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
3 You [a]comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
5 You have [b]hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in [c]hell, behold, You are there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall [d]fall on me,”
Even the night shall be light about me;
12 Indeed, the darkness [e]shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You [f]covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise You, for [g]I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My [h]frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.-Psalm 139(BibleGateway.com) (NKJV)
David seemed to get entirely what God thought of him, for me I struggle with it every day. It is in the spaces in between that many of us wish we did not feel, but do.
This isn’t a post where I can proclaim it fully, it is one more of a question, one to be shown and answered in time.