As I navigate uncomfortably through this new process of learning I have been on for a few weeks, today I sat worried once again I was not doing something right. As I took brief breaks from working on my Art, I stared outside, and kept hearing the phrase in my head: “You are accepted, now, as you are”. This kept happening on repeat for a few hours.
Since I am practically a student of Mark DeJesus teachings that says that God accepts us as we are, I keep noticing God seems to agree with that. I mean, he does say it in scripture. “Accepted in the beloved” is the original version in Ephesians. We always gloss over that to mean,:” Yeah, yeah he accepts us because he has to, or he can’t change us”. But enough of this crap. Why is it so hard to say that he accepts us now as we are? My guess is legalism dug itself deep into our souls and never left, now as we try to think new things, our minds won’t let us.
All I care about is what God thinks, and since I started this new path of understanding, I have felt something different, that is refreshing. I am trying to calm down enough to feel it, but there is a switch already.
It comes with a struggle though. Every day now, I wake up and force myself to notice where the enemy is tripping me up, I start with my emotions and see if I feel shame and humiliation, guess what? Yep, quite a bit so. I did not know I had this much.
I thought to be a believer you had to suffer and I think that is where our enemies get us. If they can trick us to think we have to suffer his way than we have no idea what God’s way is.
Some Christians hardly suffer at all. I remember noticing recently that God puts all these things on earth that are healing to help us in our physical issues. Natural things, medicine, help is everywhere, if He wanted us to suffer so much, he wouldn’t have made things available. It is little things like that I force myself to think on.
The trick in this is just stopping and accepting that God accepts me. I get the strong impression He is waiting there for me to say it, no matter how small or weak it comes out, so he can flood me with more acceptance. Sounds easy? Try it. It reallly is not.
But just the fact that God impressed that on me means something. He wants me to believe it.
Accepted in the beloved….
Accepted in the beloved..
No, if’s, and’s, or butt’s! He accepts us! I can say it now to you, in hopes you will unclench your fists and stop sweating about it little by little, day by day.
Having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will. To the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the beloved.-Ephesians 1:5-7(NKJV)