Their is a book of the same title as this post. I have never read it, so I don’t know but seeing that title online at random caused me to use it for this post.
I am going through something intensely hard, personal and will take massive courage. In no way can I talk about it for many reasons, I don’t mean to be mysterious but that is how much it means to me. I felt compelled though to write about it, since that is all I ever want to do.
This issue I am having I was willing to sit and hide with it, and never hand it over to God. I kept saying to myself: “He can read my thoughts, He knows how I feel, and how hard it is for me, so let Him do it that way.” But He can’t do anything until we give it to him directly.
Am I really the only one who has an issue so large and embarrassing, you could not possibly give it to God? I had to get pushed in a corner. That woman who drives me to church mentioned something personal the last time I saw her, and it was on the subject of which I am having issues with. The hair stood up on my neck. I went inside struggling with her issue, feeling a great burden, because I am going through the same thing myself, and realized God had me pushed against a wall.
Either I face this, and give it to Him and see if He can fix it somehow, or wonder the rest of my life what could have happened. There is something I want to do that take great courage and the odds are so heavily stacked against me that in the world, there is no way on earth anyone can achieve this. And truthfully, MOST things on earth that we deal are actually usually hard, and brutal. I wrote a journal entry about this today, and accidentally wrote the best quote to sum this up:
Reality makes everything ugly and it always has. it always paints a miserable grim picture in which nobody succeeds.
And it is true! Odds in life are impossible without God and that is the point. For believers living in a messed up world, God expects us to fully come to him, and hand everything over painfully. I say that because for us, it is painful. It will expose your miseries, your tender spots, your frustrations, things you don’t
God to see. I am not talking about sin, that is what Christians usually talk about when saying statements like this. I am talking about things the enemy throws on you that you might think come from you, like shame, embarrassment, condemnation. Then yes, there are the things you bring our of fear and worry and great concern. You wonder whether or not God can even handle something so big.
The bigger the issue is, the more we think God does not want it. How can He not though when he told us to think in powerful ways? He said, there is nothing impossible with Him.
As I wrote this, a verse came to mind:
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us-Ephesians 3:20(NKJV)
Today, I had to go in prayer and ask him point blank if He was going to help me in this thing, and wanted to? I spoke in tongues a minute, and then something came to mind-“He goes before you”. That verse from a few weeks ago when I was first told by God to hand him over this issue. He imparted to me that He could not help me, and keep the enemy off of me if I did not yield things to Him. That verse I had just found in Isaiah came to mind, I had made it and put it on Pinterest. This is the same verse He was talking about today.
That might something for you to know also today. That if things are un-yielded To god, He can’t help you or protect you. I think that is what is meant in that verse in James about: Submit to God, resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
I realized my pain over my issues caused me to hoard and hold things close to my heart. I was terrified God would just ruin it, take it away, and make everything worse. The past few weeks, I have to had to slowly hand over the pieces of my major desires and wishes to Him, when I would have rather died. It was excruciating. I thought for sure He was not on my side in this issue. Then four times, He kept showing me the verse: “If God for us, who can be against us?”.
Today, I tried going to the word for answers, and somehow thought of 2 Chronicles 20. It is about Jehoshaphat having to deal with armies on either side of him. He is stuck. He cries out:
O Lord, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. In your hand are power and might, so that none is able to withstand you? (v.6)(ESV)
And he said, “Listen, all Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem and King Jehoshaphat: Thus says the Lord to you, ‘Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed at this great horde, for the battle is not yours but God’s. 16 Tomorrow go down against them. Behold, they will come up by the ascent of Ziz. You will find them at the end of the valley, east of the wilderness of Jeruel. 17 You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position, and see the salvation of the Lord on your behalf, O Judah and Jerusalem.’ Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed. Tomorrow go out against them, and the Lord will be with you.”-2 Chronicles 15-17(ESV)
So I asked God about this, did He feel this way? Did not get much in prayer other than that verse about going before me, so I left, and went to Facebook. Why? Because several times Joseph Prince has magically said the right verses at the right time on his page. I go there, and sure enough a post from June 16 shows up I had not seen even though I go on every day. Guess what it said? 🙂
This is not the first time this happened. It has been showing up more and more on various issues in my life. What was funny was I was thinking before I went into prayer that maybe I would go to 2 Chronicles and read that story because I liked it. Little did I know, the spirit brought it up and I didn’t know it.
I don’t know why he brought up song worship, it is an option, not the only one though. I did however find a song last week I loved, and have been forcing myself to listen to it and let go.
I also forgot to mention that concerning this issue I am having, the other day in prayer another bible story came up, and it came to mind that only God can make things possible. It is an extremely short story in 2 Kings 6, and is my very favorite, always has been. These men go to chop down trees to build a house in a new place. One of them axes a tree, and the ax head flies off into the water. He asks King Elisha for help. Elisha is awesome! He has so much faith in God, he just casually trusts, and the axe head floats to the top. He has him get a stick and grabs it. What is so amazing is this fact: iron sinks in water. There is no way iron floats but it did because of God.
I hope this inspires you today. If you are facing something that is hard, insurmountable, and painful, please give it to God. You may not want to, and every part will fight against it, but as royal heirs of God, children of God, we can ask Him things and He can make a way.
But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a peculiar people; that you should show forth the praises of him who has called you out of darkness into his marvellous light.-1 Peter 2:9