I am sitting tonight, a few days before Christmas, thinking about the good in this year. I came up with a good one-the birds. When I worked and lived at the man's house I took care of, birds were outside the window. The second I saw my room, and noticed wide open curtains to a … Continue reading The God who gave birds
Category: My Stories
Noticing Everything and Loving It
I have been fascinated with Nature and sunlight more with each passing day. I used to long for an escape somewhere at a park, and felt like I could not enjoy nature unless I was somewhere special. It took my Father's death for me to start noticing more. Sounds strange, but he was so domineering … Continue reading Noticing Everything and Loving It
The Hopeful Quest for Love
I am almost numb to some extent over the concept of love. Family is not close in that way, never experienced a great deal of affection in my life, and when I did from someone once, it completely unnerved me and I wanted more of it, only to chase someone away. Can't win. As a … Continue reading The Hopeful Quest for Love
Digging for Hope
I haven't been to the creek lately, I have been sick with a cold in bed, staring at the sun from far away, and being oddly sensitive. I took time to watch some Tornado documentaries and shocked myself at how much it scared me. I was brought to tears multiple times. I watched one more … Continue reading Digging for Hope
Don’t let me lose this…
Conflict is happening again. Same problems months ago, no money, irritated and impatient people around me. Once again, I went to God in prayer, and laid everything down for him to take, told him I was waiting on answers like before. Months ago, in February, I went to the field, and sobbed helplessly begging God … Continue reading Don’t let me lose this…
Finding Meaning without even trying
I went to my favorite place yesterday, the field below my house. As I walked along the creek, I always look back at the expansive field, and...saw a stick in the dead center sticking up out of the ground. I instantly tried to find meaning in it. I just do. God tries to get my … Continue reading Finding Meaning without even trying
Too Deep for Words
I look for ways to connect with God when I can, and the best way I know how is through creation. He made me this way, to care about it so much it would affect me. Problem is, I don't understand what I am feeling. I found a song I love: Mree, In Your Eyes. … Continue reading Too Deep for Words
Finding God in the space in between
After reading once more, Bonnie Gray's book: Spiritual Whitespace, I wanted to experience it. She says that we feel like God can only be found in church, or in Bible reading, but miss that he is with us in everyday things and events. She points out that he made us a certain way, with certain … Continue reading Finding God in the space in between
You Never Forget Kindness
Flashback to May 2017. I was having some scary digestive issues and was nauseous a lot. I found this free clinic not far from home and went there. The wait was very long, and I would go for the next few years repeatedly, waiting for three hours for medicine but it was worth it. When … Continue reading You Never Forget Kindness
My Infamous Shooting Star Story
Flashback to 1998. I am living with my parents briefly, working retail during the day, and at night a few times a week, I helped out at a ballroom dance studio. I had heard my family exclaim they had seen shooting stars like crazy lately. My parents even took a photo and had it framed. … Continue reading My Infamous Shooting Star Story
